:-(

And then this bad nightmare of last night which ends in the place where I was working - but only in my dream I was used to this blank walls, the carpeted floor and it was like my new job but I was sure it wasn't just a job but a damn good never expected employment - more an emplayment with very good payment, but totally incurious colleagues and team executive officers.

This dream which ends that one of these men in suits leads me up to the second floor and this was the first time I felt at least any kind of emotion in his voice. Indeed, it was threatening. When he switches on the light and said: "Alle 40 gemordet. Sofort tot." and my heart stood still in a fraction of a second when expecting bodies when the light turned on, but not expecting still in this fraction of the other half of the second second, the yellow outlinies drawn by the policemen.

And no time to be aware of how many outlines there were crossing and in a flash having the past and or the ghosts in my presence of all the colleagues I am thinking of a collective and not of individuals. Too much dead bodies at once to grief individually.

"Alle 40 gemordet" he says. Not "ermordet". And in this very moment I awake without having had the opportunity to finish and to see the dead in the eye to finish my heart hanging above the cliffs.

"Alle 40 gemordet."

What a nightmare.
And all in all, my last feeling - so clearly - in spite all of these signs which are now not only signs, but real dead bodies - there is a clearly felt cliffhanger.